Genting Vac
Friday, November 25, 2011 | 9:55 AM |
0 letters'To love or to be loved, that is the question'
Yeahh.. it is indeed a question indeed. To me, in my love life.
Last three days I went to a vacation organised by my friend to Genting Highlands to meet up with her boyfriend. Of course, her boyfriend brought his own boy friends gang. The optimistic and open as I am, I get along well with the boys. They're all the same age as me and they have got the humor too. It was fun and it was a little regretful to part this early. They live at Kelantan, which take more than 6 hours to reach there from here. I got this particular guy who, uhm.. confessed to me the day before we part and I think, regretful, I accepted that proposal on an IMPULSE! I thought it will be alright. But it's not. Love is never easy especially when it comes to someone you care but not by love. By affection.
I dunno what i feel about him but certainly I don't hate him but neither does I love him, i dunno. For some unknown reason, I feel uneasy and uncomfortable about this long distance relationship. It just make me think that maybe I have done the wrong thing. Maybe I shouldn't accept him at all. Now i think about it, why did I? Just on what basis did I have the right to accept him when I don't even know how I feel? I feel like I have done what a scum can do. I accept his feeling but I feel uncomfortable and I don't know if I love him. So what now? Seriously, I can expect myself to do the same, to break a person heart right after I tell him what he wanted.
So I have decided, I will use the time while we're together to develop the feeling. I don't hate him so loving him shouldn't be hard at all. All I need to do is to work harder. I want to tell him that I love him just the way he love me.
Genting Vac
Friday, November 25, 2011 | 9:55 AM |
0 letters'To love or to be loved, that is the question'
Yeahh.. it is indeed a question indeed. To me, in my love life.
Last three days I went to a vacation organised by my friend to Genting Highlands to meet up with her boyfriend. Of course, her boyfriend brought his own boy friends gang. The optimistic and open as I am, I get along well with the boys. They're all the same age as me and they have got the humor too. It was fun and it was a little regretful to part this early. They live at Kelantan, which take more than 6 hours to reach there from here. I got this particular guy who, uhm.. confessed to me the day before we part and I think, regretful, I accepted that proposal on an IMPULSE! I thought it will be alright. But it's not. Love is never easy especially when it comes to someone you care but not by love. By affection.
I dunno what i feel about him but certainly I don't hate him but neither does I love him, i dunno. For some unknown reason, I feel uneasy and uncomfortable about this long distance relationship. It just make me think that maybe I have done the wrong thing. Maybe I shouldn't accept him at all. Now i think about it, why did I? Just on what basis did I have the right to accept him when I don't even know how I feel? I feel like I have done what a scum can do. I accept his feeling but I feel uncomfortable and I don't know if I love him. So what now? Seriously, I can expect myself to do the same, to break a person heart right after I tell him what he wanted.
So I have decided, I will use the time while we're together to develop the feeling. I don't hate him so loving him shouldn't be hard at all. All I need to do is to work harder. I want to tell him that I love him just the way he love me.
Just Me?
Hello lovelies, I don't know what to say about myself..
I'm Josephine. I'm 17 this year. Obviously from my name, I'm a girl.
There's a few warnings I'd like my dear lovelies that read this blog (which is like impossible? Cause I keep myself low profile)
First of all, This blog is about my crappy life. No, wait, my life ain't crappy at all.. It's just me being mean to my life. So yeah, if you're not interested in my life, then I'm sorry?
Second, My life revolves around Anime, mostly, Manga, definitely, Kpop, recently. I'm a Shawol. Hell yeah I love Shinee.. I'm also about to become a proud EXOtics. I will be posting about them. So, be prepare to see lots of them?
Third, SHOUNEN AI ALERT. I'M A MAJOR FANFIC ADDICT FANGIRLS. So please, turn back now if you're homophobic or whatever. No bashing around okay?
Forth, don;t expect anything out of ordinary from me. I'm just simple.
Lastly, this is no warning, please, enjoy whatever you're reading from this good for nothing blog of mine.
Oh, I'm a quote lovers. Here's a few to enjoy.
`"No matter which road we choose, as we leave behind unfulfilled dreams, life must go on."
`"Wish to forgive your yesterday, wish to love your tomorrow."
`"I'll follow you and make a heaven out of hell, and I'll die by your hand which I love so well."
Ciao lovely and thank you for reading my rambles. I love you so much. *ugly sobbing*
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